Writer's Block by Sasa®

"Love and faith", he said. It sounds like it came straight out from the Light, Peace, Love album of Bamboo that is playing on the background...

It has been 8 simple years since Jase and I hooked up together. No single big event can really define our relationship because for those years, we spent every single day with no grand gestures. Just living our normal lives -- together. No fancy out of town trips, no candle lit dinner dates, no weekly going to the movies. More than anything we became good partners in living the real world.

Our relationship started during the last quarter of our senior year in highschool. We weren't sure what's gonna happen to us after the graduation. We even said our goodbyes but we didn't promise anything that we would continue on with the relationship. But all through out college we were there to witness as life unfolds new challenges to us. He has been my sole confidante as our family businesses went down hill leaving my family almost nothing. I saw him grew, just the way I imagine he will be when I first got to know him. From a shy guy he became the leader of most of his endeavor.

Who would imagine that on our sophomore year in the working industry we would still be together. Sharing a couple of glass of Pepsi and some cheese and chicken strips pondering on that thought what really made our relationship survived it all. Wedding plans you might ask? Well not yet... but don't worry it will happen and you'll be invited.

Out of necessity nagboblog ako ngayon kse it's Jason's 3rd day in Baguio. It's his first time niyaya nya nga kong sumama pero tumanggi ako despite the fact na medyo matagal-tagal na rin yung last na punta ko don. Bukod kase na naubos ko na yung leave ko sa office at sa January pa marerenew ayokong magvacation with his whole family mamaya sa tabi pa ng mga biyenan kong hilaw ako patulugin. Don't get me wrong, hindi naman  sa galit ako sa aking soon to be mother-in-law. It's just that I'm starting to be uncomfortable with her paranoia of Jase & I getting married anytime soon. Tinalo pa si Jaworski kung magbantay pagmagkasama kami ni Jase dahil baka "daw" meron kaming gawin na di dapat. Minsan nga natatawa na lang ako kse parang sya pa yung babae sa aming dalawa. And considering we've been together for almost 8 years (since 4th highschool pa kse kami). I totally understands her point, hindi ko naman minamasa yung paghihigpit nya sa amin at kahit papano napatunayan na rin naman namin ni Jase na hindi kami nagmamadali. So para maiwasan na lang yung suspicion I decided not to go. As if naman papayagan ako ng tatay ko sumama sa kanila for 3 days di ba? hehehe...

Pero damned I miss the guy!

One facet of Jase - the vocalist/guitarist. It's been awhile since he sang to me kaya I captured the moment kso ayaw nya iparinig yung rendition nya nung "You'll Be Safe Here" ng Rivermaya kse pangit daw kaya di ko na pinost yung midi. We just hang out yesterday at my place. Matagal-tagal na rin naming di nagagawa yun eh kaya naman inenjoy na namin yung moment.

Thanks Jase! Spending a relaxing afternoon with you makes life worth living...

It's our 90th Monthsary today. No hindi pa kami kasal, magboyfriend pa lang kami (di din kami live-in ha). During those more than 7 years namin di rin kami nagbreak-up at araw-araw rin kami nagkikita dahil we live a few blocks away from each other before kami lumipat ng house. I don't want to consider our relationship as perfect pero alam ko medyo malaking achievement na rin yon considering sa panahon natin ngayon.

Many questions have been asked to me regarding our relationship especially those na kakakilala ko lang. So here are few of them:

Question #1: Di ka ba nagsasawa? (Or in some other form, di ba kayo nagkakasawaan?)

Answer: For me the word "SAWA" is a choice. You choose to be saturated with the relationship or with the person. It's a conscious decision that you make. And contrary to other beliefs, it's not a state of emotion but rather a state of mind. Dahil iba-iba tayo ng saturation level. Unlike pag napaso, lahat tayo umaaray unless ikaw yung tipo ng taong naglalakad sa baga or kumakain ng basag na bote or someting to that effect. You become sawa because you think you had enough of the same thing over and over again. And you think you don't want it any longer. Which brings me to my next point, ikaw bilang partner it's your duty not to expect that the person will stay the same forever and ever simula nung nagkakilala kayo. It's your responsibility to make an effort to see the person in a different light every single day. And I do mean EVERY SINGLE DAY! Dahil everyone evolves -- they change. You change! Therefore it's unfair to say na nagsasawa ka na dun sa tao, maybe you just did not take the time to look deeper and discover the things that have changed about him. From a simple new haircut to a life altering experience can make a person evolve.

Question #2: Bakit di pa kayo nagpapakasal?

Answer: Jase and I are already passed those impulsive years wherein you just couldn't wait to get hitched. We have waited this long so we could still wait some more. Sa aming dalawa, mas impulsive ako, ako yung tipong sige pakasal na tayo because who wouldn't want to be with the person you love legally, di ba? Wala nang limitations and restriction. But fate gave me a lot of challenges during my impulsive teenage years that I didn't really had enough time to ponder on the idea of getting married soon. Medyo mainipin din ako but I know there are a lot of rewards in waiting until we're ready. Lagi nyang sinasabi that it's better na ngayon na kami magtiis para pagnagkasama na talaga kami we could do ALL the things we want to do rather than kung kelan kami nagpakasal eh don pa kami mag-aaway dahil wala na kaming ipakain sa mga anak namin.

Question #3: Nag-ano na ba kayo? *Anong ano? Ang laki mo na di mo pa masabi SEX! SEX! SEX! (From 20 Questions)*

Answer: Jase respects me and he is a perfect gentleman. We have been intimate but we know our limitations. And... Teka masyadong private na to noh!!!

Question #4: Mataba na ba sya nung naging kayo?

Answer: Oo! But I never really saw him as a fat person. When we became classmates, pagkausap ko sya ang nakikita ko yung medyo aloof na Jason pero daming potentials. Tsaka namesmerize ata ako sa dimples nya kaya di ko yun napapansin. Isa pa he's not like other chubby people na parang sobrang lousy maglakad or bigat na bigat sa katawan. He's quite athletic at medyo palaban sa basketball yan, malaki lang talaga yung built nya. Sa food din, di naman sya matakaw katulad nung mga nakikita nyo, normal na kaing lalaki din yung servings nya. Mas malakas pa nga kong kumain sa kanya eh kse pagnaorder kami ngayon kung gaano karami yung order nya ganon din yung akin. Hahaha!!! But seriously slow metabolic rate talaga sya.

HAPPY 90TH MONTHSARY JASEY!!!

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Disclaimer: I'm just lucky to be with a good man.
So make sure the person is really worth it.
Otherwise, ditched him.
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